Why am I even starting a blog?!?! The mom of 2, the youngest not yet 6 months old. I am struggling to get back to some sense of normalcy, physical, mental and emotional. My weight is off the charts, I feel disgusting, I have about 5 “outfits” that fit. I am riddled with feelings of inadequacy and left with little confidence. I am irritable and sometimes, way more than I want, I am just a f*ing B. I am tired. I think I am a fraud—as a mom, at my job (teacher). I feel lonely and disconnected. And apparently my thyroid isn’t functioning properly (another wonderful side effect of pregnancy—surprise!!). The kicker about that is that it’s overactive, which leads most people to lose weight without trying…sigh.
So, why am I starting this blog? My mind is often racing with thoughts about everything (see above). I am hoping this gives me an outlet to get these thoughts out, a purging if you will. I need an outlet that is not my husband (you should see the rambling texts that he receives when I am at the gym, having thoughts, and trying to look not uncomfortable and like I might have a clue about what I am doing). I want to feel better so I can be better and do better. For myself. So that then I can be better and do better for my family and my friends and at my job. But mostly for my myself and my family.
The (mis)Adventures of the MayBee Mom 