Journal 24

I am really having a hard time being grateful and focused and peaceful right now. I was challenged to take 5 min to be grateful and breath this AM before anything else, particularly going online. I failed as I never even thought of it until a few hours after being awake. Now I really wish I had started the day that way. Maybe I wouldn’t be at least 4 fights in with the hubs and feeling like the asshole as usual. It’s probably my fault but he’s not really helping. He doesn’t feel good, back, so perhaps it’s that. Too often I feel like I am wishing for a different life. And in reality I am the one who has to make it different. Tomorrow I am really going to try to remember to take the 5 f*ing minutes.

Gratitude:

1. Pre-work Party
2. Got shit done!
3. Worked out
4. Enjoyed my two babes
5. Cake and breakfast tray ordered.
6. Gifts for neighbor done
7. The little cakes I bought for the party were good
8. I was under 180 finally! It felt like I just couldn’t get there

Action: Take 5 min. Workout tonight.