Journal

I am so behind and not doing what I am supposed to be (according to my nutrition coach) and I have no idea what I am being challenged to do at this moment. I having been feeling not so great for the past week-ish. The not great way I was feeling back in the spring. Is is postpartum hormones or is this just me? I really don’t know any more. I feel down and negative about myself–in addition to feeling so fat and physically gross, I also feel incompetent, not likeable, annoying, disposable… I was supposed to be texting my coach what I was most proud of in the AM about the day before. This was challenged on Sunday. I sent my text Monday (worked out even when I didn’t want to), but by Tuesday AM I stopped. I had nothing to say. I haven’t done anything to be proud of. Not that I did “bad” things but there was just nothing to mention or highlight. So today I am trying to get back to my gratitude. I also need to get improve my sleep. Like for real. I think that is really taking its toll on me and def contributes to feeling low.

Gratitude:

1. That I have sick time to use and take care of my babies when I need to.
2. Doggie day care
3. Beautiful baby boys
4. Time to do things at home.
5. The weeks almost over
6. Great weather
7. Fall is approaching
8. Hubs can stay home with bear tomorrow
9. Coffee
10. Computers!