The Dreaded Return

I am having some real anxieties about returning to work today. I have been dreading it and last couldn’t sleep and fretted which just made it worse. Of course I ended up with less then 5 hours sleep. Ideal. I feel wholly unprepared. I feel like what I really need is a stay at mental institution. A week before Christmas I learned my husband has been engaging in sexual activities outside of our marriage for years, a decade at least, prob our whole marriage. I am devastated and have been in survival mode. He has serious issues, sex addiction or compulsion or whatever. Where do I go from here?

I need to focus on today. Gratitude:

1. My children
2. I have a good job
3. Coffee
4. Only 2 days of work this week
5. It’s a new year

Intentions: Be focused at work and use my time efficiently. Enjoy my children and make sure they know they are loved so much. Go to bed by 9PM.