So I am pregnant. It happened on Dec 26th. My husband started his sexual sobriety Jan 7th. I found out he was a sex addict Dec 18th. I find out new details sprinkled in overtime. This is a lot of shit to process and work through and feel. And it will sucker punch you anytime you don’t expect it (hmm, redundant? That’s the definition of a sucker punch right?). Like in the middle of your circuit training class and you just retreat into yourself and want to desperately not be around other people. I think I can already come across as not friendly, this makes it worse. I need to focus more on my self, my health, my recovery. I don’t exactly know how to do that, what steps to take. It would be “nice” to talk to someone else with a similar experience. The family of addicts group is good, I have open up and shared but not everything. I am not comfortable sharing everything. It feels so different. It feels so depraved. It feels so shameful.
Gratitude:
- Baby boys that are such love bugs. I am so lucky.
- Family group meeting
- Made it to the gym last night
- Coffee, even if it is decaf
- It’s not raining!! ☀️
Intentions: Acknowledge and push aside negative thoughts. Be focused and productive at work. Enjoy my time at home. Rest & water!!
The (mis)Adventures of the MayBee Mom 