School finished on Friday. We had a nice weekend. It was great to not have work stuff either hanging over me on the weekend or having to be done on the weekend. It actually felt relaxing. Hubs did some recovery work. I still have questions, repeats and new ones regarding his acting out and past behaviors. I don’t know if I will ever get used to it. Frequently feels like I am being sucker punched when thoughts of his acting out behaviors intrude upon my mind. We are preparing for the full therapeutic disclosure (FTD) and it is making me nervous. Sometimes I want to get it over with and other times I want to avoid it. Even planning for the aftermath, it makes me unsettled. I just need to pick that aside for now.
Gratitude:
- Baby boys, they are so lovey
- Squirmy bun in the oven
- Summer!
- Time to focus on me and recovery
- Moving forward on home projects
- Great weekend
- Farm fresh strawberries
- Family
- Heating pad
- Waking up (not being woken up!)
Intentions: Enjoy my children and my day. Follow my plan to get things done for me and for us. Drink water and move.
Affirmations: I am a good mom and wife. I am working on my recovery from trauma. I am always working to improve our lives.
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