Summer Day 10

I am not getting enough sleep. This is not helping me. I have been having too many sad, feeling bad kind of days. Including today. I just woke up feeling and thinking all the negative thoughts about myself, just randomly popping up thoughts that remind me I am not good enough, smart enough, like able, etc. Just moments throughout life that just reinforce those negative feelings. And then of course there’s the part of your mind that knows everyone is worthwhile, everyone has positive attributes, everyone is lovable. But today what I know and what I feel are just not syncing up. Maybe by the end of this journal entry, gratitude and intentions, i will be on my way to resetting.

Gratitude:

1. Cool breezy morning
2. Little pool set up for the boys
3. Joined an anti-racist book club with some fellow teachers
4. Deck to be repaired tomorrow
5. Cute baby boys
6. Little bean is moving through the day
7. Hubs continues to work his programs
8. Father’s Day shirts were a success
9. Lots of birds in the yard and lots of songs
10. Taking walks

Intentions: Enjoy the boys. Recognize when I am getting emo and take a break, even if just for 15 sec. Find the space btw stimulus and response.

Affirmations: I love my family and work hard for them everyday. I am a good mother and wife. I am worthy of feeling good.