Today is a tough day. I feel like I have an emotional hangover. Hubs will be home soon which is good. Lots of intrusive thoughts and obsessive behaviors last night and early this morning related to his SA and acting out. This is the type of thing I hope the FTD helps to reduce / eliminate. Definite need for self care today. Going to try to read my current spouse recovery book (1 chapter) and work in my impact letter. While that’s also a draining exercise it can also be cathartic to write things down.
Gratitude:
- Social distance visit with a few friends
- Baby boys
- Chocolate fudge brownie ice cream
- Hubs had extra hours and could work a short day today
- Storms today may bring much needed relief from the heat and humidity
- Lawn was cut yesterday
- Received a really nice note from random country club member who liked our lawn sign, “In this house, we believe, BLM, Women’s rights are Human Rights…etc”
- A home and reliable cars
- Sent condolences to my aunts and cousin
- It’s the weekend
Intentions: Rest and take of my self.
Affirmations: I am a good wife and mother. I am practicing self care.
The (mis)Adventures of the MayBee Mom 