Summer Monday

Had a rough time this weekend, especially yesterday. We were discussing refinancing, moving, addition to this house, payouts, etc. it is overwhelming. I don’t know what I want. Where will we be in a year? Will things be better? Am I ready to live forever with SA in my life. Will it always be such a big focus. Will the hubs ever be what I really want and need? Will I have thoughts of his AO behaviors every day for the rest of my life? It is so heavy.

Gratitude:

1. Bubba making me a surprise “birthday” cake
2. Hubs helping bubba make not just a cake, but a Swedish chocolate brownie like cake 🤤
3. Baby bear for just being so huggy and wild at the same time
4. Morning hike in the woods as a family
5. No boys awake this AM when I got up
6. Moving forward although it is not easy or painfree
7. New car is pretty sweet
8. An unexpected 3 day weekend
9. Early morning target run is on my horizon
10. Although it will be brutally hot today, I could sit out side to do my morning routine

Intentions: Read, clean, love my family

Affirmations: I am working hard for my family, I am a good wife and mother.