Summer Day 61

I am struggling everyday at this point when being patient. My poor little ones. I feel swollen and tired and cranky at this stage of pregnancy. The heat makes it worse, although I heard that today is nice out. Like today, my fingers feel twice their normal size and my head is throbbing. All noise is just nails on the chalkboard. It sucks. I don’t want to be a miserable b from here on out. Also, when I talked with hubs this AM he said he had to meet with his supervisors about productivity and fire extinguishers. Stuff like this makes my stomach turn. Is he is trouble? Is his job at risk? Is he not doing his job well enough or is it his management team and their lack of leadership skills. I would say at least it is the weekend, but he most likely has to work tomorrow (which he still didn’t know yet when I spoke with him the AM?). And I also need him home today for an appointment. I don’t know if I am going to come back to the house afterward. I wish I could get a hotel for the rest of this pregnancy. I mean I would still come and visit everyone but I really wish I had some solitude sometimes.

Gratitude:

1. Baby bear
2. Bubba
3. Hubs
4. Extended family
5. Remote learning
6. 2 more weeks of vacay
7. Options and choices
8. Sesame street
9. My bed
10. Appt today, will be able to hear heartbeat

Intentions: Find the space btw response and stimulus, move my body, drink all the water.

Affirmations: I am a supportive and empathetic wife. I love my children. I am working to be a better human.