Another day, another argument

I asked him to finish cleaning up while I went to the grocery store with bubba. I cleaned up mostly, the counters needed to be wiped and the couple of items they were using to go in the dishwasher. He had an Appt at 7. Went left at about 6:30, home at 8. Kitchen seemed even messier, nothing was wiped, dishes stacked by sink. I try to not be bothered by this, but later when I start talking about thanksgiving and I feel blown off, it’s an emo volcano. Then I just want to argue. Then he says I should just cancel thanksgiving. Ok. Cancel your family. Whatever. But stop blaming me, that I am already too stressed. I love planning for things, for school, projects, events, and def parties and gatherings. It’s something I don’t get to do much. Maybe he is already stressed about it. My reaction was shit. I was an asshole and I yelled and ended up stressing everybody including myself. Maybe I should have just expressed that I was annoyed about the kitchen earlier. Maybe then I wouldn’t have gotten so upset later. I am not sure how to handle these things. And I am not sure how to not get as annoyed about things.

Gratitude:

1. Bubba
2. Buddha
3. Bear
4. Grocery shopping with bubba
5. New Low Deck
6. Halloween time
7. Changing foliage
8. No late night binging
9. It’s a new day
10. Meetings tonight

Intentions: Healthy choices, no late night snacking, drink water, track.

Affirmations: I am working on being healthier (inside and out). I love my family. I work hard to support my class at school.