A little bit of a rough week. Lots of info from my SA and his activities. While still sober (sexually and drugs/alcohol), there was some spending going on that seemed compulsive to me and secretive. He also engaged in some compulsive (impulsive?) secret eating too. While I appreciate his sobriety and these acts don’t diminish that, it is stressful and damages trust. He has spent over $800 on online app based video games so far this year! For me, that’s not really reasonable. After talking with my therapist (before knowing all of this info) basically I need to try to talk less when discussing this type of info, give more space for him to speak and not use my talking as an out in some respects.
Gratitude:
- Boys!!
- Beautiful weather
- Weekend with my family
- Getting things done
- Clean sheets on my bed
- HIR sharing
- Flowers blooming
- Shopping at the garden center yesterday with Bubba
- Weight is going down
- Making time for self care
The (mis)Adventures of the MayBee Mom 