Gratitude

It’s hard to refocus my mind on the positives and to be grateful when I find myself married to a sex addict and I don’t know if some things will ever change. It’s hard to keep my mind focused on me and the boys and moving forward and healthy way when thoughts of your husband driving around a prostitute to get services pop into your head unexpectedly. Just because you are trying and mostly doing the right thing now doesn’t erase all the fucked up shit that you were doing and that I was living with for so long. It never will.

Gratitude:

1. Working at home on Wednesdays all year
2. Beautiful perfect weather today
3. Got my list of things done
4. Last 2 days ahead of me
5. Flowers in bloom
6. Birds chirping
7. Bertucci’s for dinner
8. Grandma can retire from babysitting everyday
9. Summer is just days away
10. Yoga streaming
11. Fat fuzzy bumble bees

The next two days will good. Productive and light hearted. I am not too much.