Overwhelmed

To say things have been overwhelming is an understatement for sure. We closed on the new house on Friday and I wasn’t in love. It was difficult, I had only seen the house once in person and then had zillow pictures to look at and of course, everything looks better and bigger in pictures. Seeing the house empty, all the problems REALLY stand out, and there are many. Some big, some small, but almost everything things to get redone. The couple we bought the home from, albeit so sweet and so nice, they really didn’t keep up on alot of things and/or they (he) did things himself and the workmanship is very questionable. He is not a master craftsman, that is quite clear. So then the unease sets in and the questioning-did we make a tremendous expensive mistake???

The floors are getting redone now-removed laminate from one room and refinishing all the rest. This has already helped and we are only at the sanding stage. But then it becomes worrisome re when will everything be dry? When can we move in the furniture? Us? Our rental ends in 5 days, what are we doing then?

So one day at a time, one thing at a time, I guess. Starting today with gratitude practice which has really been non existent and then making a list. That should help. Organizing all the things and writing them down v just random thoughts, ideas, items to do popping up all day long and then feeling like I am not sure where to begin.

Gratitude:

1. A new to us old Victorian home
2. The opportunity to restore and make the new house our home that reflects its history and US as a family.
3. Floor color is chosen – one decision down
4. Take out tonight! School fundraiser – so nice to not have to plan and make dinner.
5. Meeting tonight
6. A new day with few “appointments”
7. Rain today and beautiful weather ahead
8. Being in New England for Autumn
9. Bubba is loving his new school
10. A new day, a new chance at everything
11. My family