Can I ever get over this? I really don’t know right now. I was just driving around the corner, literally, to move the car for a painting project. And some dance song came on and I love to dance (well I did prekids, really haven’t had a chance in the last 5 years 🙃) and …
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Day 18
I need to regroup. Focus on healthy eating, sleep, water, and being as not up tight as possible. My intentions for the week. So on Saturday we took a drive. It started to rain as soon as we left the house for a walk, so we went about a block and turned around. Drive instead. …
Day 16
Gratitude: Baby buddha Baby bear’s love of soft stuffies Lunch from my fav Mediterranean place Hummus! Bubba. He is so sweet. Shower and a soak Clean boys Family visit Car seats and other needed misc baby items ordered New Tupperware and Halloween decorations ordered!
Day 15
I feel like I am failing at breast feeding. Why is it so hard? I feel like I am trying really hard with this, but maybe not hard enough. The baby took a long time to go to sleep last night. He just wasn’t getting what he needed. Hubs was feeding him a bottle, first …
Day 14
Ups and downs today. Sometimes it’s really hard to see or remember the ups. The downs so easily take over. Gratitude: Baby bear Bubba Baby buddha Amazon order came Apple picking Walk A week with hubs home still to go I know the truth Fall weather Pumpkin treats
Day 13
A little better yesterday too. I wonder if others experience that their SA partner kind of has a mushy mind at least when still in the earlier stages of recovery. I feel like hubs has a hard time planning (or just over thinks and takes too long on this phase), initiating, working through abs completing …
Day 12
Yesterday was pretty good. My emotional outbursts / deregulation were limited. Overall, I think I handled things pretty well. I got to give some feedback to the hubs CSAT which I was happy about. I don’t know what they really discuss, but I am sometimes concerned about his perspective of things, so it felt good …
Day 11
Yesterday was even better than the day before. Only I blow up (at least only one I remember) by me toward the hubs. His time management and awareness sucks. I don’t want to be relied on as the project manager for all things. I want him to be able to set time parameters and to …
Day 10
Yesterday was better. I stayed busy with some self care, nursing and fall decorating. It helped me to reduce intrusive thoughts about my husbands acting act behaviors and his recovery. I want him to be in recovery and to work his program, but it is his job to prove it to me, it is not …
Day 9
It’s a new day. Going to start on a positive note. Going to work to detachment. Be grateful for what I have. Gratitude: Baby boys My comfy bed PS coffee And creamer! A sunny cool day Organized, cleaned out toys Near daily soaks (to mind the undercarriage, but also relaxing and mini escape) Hubs to …
The (mis)Adventures of the MayBee Mom 