Gratitude:
- Baby boys
- Warm weather
- Baby naps!
- Disney +
- Online clothes order arrived
Intentions: Accomplish a few items on the To Do list, enjoy time outside (and away from anyone not my own family), try to be happy.
Affirmations: I am a good mother and partner.
I feel agitated today. I couldn’t go grocery shopping, hubs did it. I like doing the shopping. I like have some control over something in my life, even before this COVID 19 situation, with all the other shite swirling around, it was my thing to be responsible for and control. Not just the actual items purchased, but also the budget piece of that.
I also feel agitated at my husband and myself. Did I pick the wrong person? It seems like I might have and I want him to prove me wrong, but so far, he has not. I know he is working on his program and recovery, but sometimes even that feels like it’s like on his terms. Or maybe his progress is just not fast enough for me. Or maybe it’s this social distancing and being isolated which is an issue I had before the current state of affairs in the country and world. And now it is exacerbated. I don’t know. I just need to breathe and take care of me and of my children.