Gratitude:

1. Baby boys
2. New dress
3. Easy meals
4. Not being called for jury duty
5. La Bufana visited

Intentions: Be focused at work. Finalize an IEP. Don’t stay late. Take down some Christmas decorations.

Gratitude:

1. My baby boys
2. Target
3. Clean kitchen
4. Hubs is trying
5. Good job & healthcare

Intentions: Be focused on work during the day, move steadily through the day. Acknowledge sad or upsetting thoughts and push aside. Accomplish 3 things on my to do list.

Gratitude:

1. It’s Friday!
2. My sons ❤️
3. A new year
4. A week without the dog
5. My husband is doing the work

Intentions: Acknowledge and push aside sad thoughts and feelings, be present, be kind.

I am having some real anxieties about returning to work today. I have been dreading it and last couldn’t sleep and fretted which just made it worse. Of course I ended up with less then 5 hours sleep. Ideal. I feel wholly unprepared. I feel like what I really need is a stay at mental institution. A week before Christmas I learned my husband has been engaging in sexual activities outside of our marriage for years, a decade at least, prob our whole marriage. I am devastated and have been in survival mode. He has serious issues, sex addiction or compulsion or whatever. Where do I go from here?

I need to focus on today. Gratitude:

1. My children
2. I have a good job
3. Coffee
4. Only 2 days of work this week
5. It’s a new year

Intentions: Be focused at work and use my time efficiently. Enjoy my children and make sure they know they are loved so much. Go to bed by 9PM.

Gratitude:

• My beautiful children
• My job
• 2 days until break
• My car
• Family time soon

Intentions: Get through the day! Breath. Do one thing at time. Keep moving forward.

Gratitude:

• There is. I thing I have to do tonight
• My boys
• My husband is really trying
• Good coffee
• IEP meeting today with a great family
• Hump day

Intentions: Enjoy the moments of today, move efficiently and productively.

Gratitude:

1. Beautiful baby boys

2. Good reliable car

3. A job

4. My husband

5. It’s Friday!!!!

Intentions: Complete an IEP, start Christmas cards, enjoy my family tonight.

Gratitude:

1. Bubba & Bear! I am so lucky!
2. Gift ordered!
3. IEP day today!
4. Weight is going DOWN!
5. Thursday!
6. Coffee!!!!!

Intention: Be focused. Finalize 3 IEPs. Enjoy babies. Track food (and get upstairs earlier to limit snacking!)

Gratitude:

1. So close to winter break
2. Last night went pretty well with babies despite the long day for all
3. GBBO Holiday edition!!!
4. Coffee
5. Christmas bedding!

Intention: Finalize 1 IEP today. Track all the food.

I am up 7 pounds and I am basically just binge eating. I keep saying I need to rein things back in, stop eating all the unhealthy stuff, exercise and I am just eating everything in sight, feeling disgusting, not wanting to work out or participate in life. Things are not so good. Short term goal: track and be healthy today through Friday.

Gratitude:

1. Personal day yesterday enjoyed with bubba
2. Lots of holiday festivities this past weekend
3. Starting the work week on Tuesday
4. Coffee, especially the holiday blends
5. Prepped food for the work week

Intentions: Be focused at work and always move forward. Track my food!!! 😡