1. The most wonderful baby boys
2. Canal-o-ween 🎃
3. Lunches are made
4. Able to contact some parents today
5. Supportive co-workers

I am really having a hard time resetting and then staying set. I need to set my intentions in the AM and track all my food. I need to limit what foods I can eat (at least in the short term) because I am failing at losing weight. And when another milestone comes around and I am still so heavy I will just feel so badly about myself. Whether it should or not, so much of my self worth is tied up in how I look and how far I am (or feel). I gotta get on this. I have to change!

Gratitude;

1. Got to do lots of adulting this weekend and didn’t have to pay for a sitter
2. Great weather on Saturday
3. My parents loving my children so much and coming to visit
4. Prepped some food
5. Took a bath

Opportunity to go to part workshop

Visualized

My sweet baby

Tomorrow is Friday

Cough suppressant

Today will be a good day. I will do my best at work within a reasonable time. I will be patient and understanding with my students and my children. I will breathe deeply if I feel stressed or overwhelmed.

What a garbage start to the day. Both staying home from work today. Hubs is in a bad mood again. Ugh. I feel like I tried really hard to be positive, to reset the day and then I just got frustrated and I just got nasty. Which then makes me feel bad but also I feel like I said the truth. So now I need to REALLY reset and visualize the rest of the day and I am not sure I can mentally do that. How do I handle this? Maybe I will sit down with a coffee and try to relax and do it then. To be continued…

1. My co-advisors
2. Hubs got some painting touch ups done
3. Beautiful baby bear, so happy
4. Wild child

Today, I will find comfort and relaxation in the dreary weather. I will finalize two IEPs. I will feel my heart filling with love and joy when I am with and when I think about my family. I will respond calmly at work including to (or esp to) people who approach me in an uppity or irate manner. I will accomplish the work I can accomplish in the time provided. I will take care of my self.

1. Bubba wants to wear underwear and is working on potty training

1. Great weather & walk with my fam
2. Ordered Halloween stuff
3. Left work early (like only 20 min after contractual time!)
4. Define stories with my love bugs
5. Monday ✅

I will have a calm and peaceful day. I will be productive and do the work I can do. I will enjoy my time with my family. I will respond positively toward others esp my children and husband.

My visualization may have worked. Overall, my day was good and as I had hoped. I hope I remember to do it again tomorrow.

1. Lovely Sunday
2. Quality time with each baby
3. Flu shot ✅
4. Hubs did not work today
5. Slept in a bit