The new challenge from the nutrition coach. Just to give the back story, I have been a mess the past two weeks. Eating like shit, not making time for exercise, not getting enough sleep or water. Not tracking. Feeling sad and overwhelmed and just awful all around. I had hit a milestone before that, under 170 finally. I even bought some new clothes. And I ruined it. Ruined my progress. My mojo. Whatever. I also feel sick. Little bear picked up something and I think I got it. So, I was told to journal how I want my day to go. Visualization I guess, the secret kinda shit (I assume since i never read it). So here goes.

I want today to be a good and relaxing day. I will get things done, some cleaning and some work and target. But I will feel relaxed and calm today. I am going to enjoy my family today.

I need to not stop doing this. Missing one day, ok, but this is ridiculous. Everything has been a mess the past week or two. I really need to make time to reflect and be grateful and positive.

1. Bear
2. Bubba
3. Hubs
4. My mom
5. Halloween
6. Pumpkins
7. PS almond milk creamer
8. Tomorrow is Thursday
9. Donated books for my student
10. Fiber crackers

1. Beautiful baby boys
2. Pumpkin everything
3. Outdoor decor done
4. New clothes that are not maternity
5. Hubby
6. Short week
7. Jeans Monday
8. My car

1. Family Halloween party last night
2. Babies in costumes
3. It’s the weekend
4. Fall weather
5. Good meeting at work
6. Weight is down
7. Halloween decorations

1. Friday
2. Baby bear
3. Bubba
4. Hubs
5. Weather
6. Pumpkin spice peanut butter
7. Apples from local orchards
8. Coffee

1. Two work days left!
2. IEP day yesterday
3. Happy babies
4. Have my car back
5. Got some work done yesterday
6. Made hair appt for hubs. Hope he likes it and it turns out nice
7. Dinner reservations made

1. One more day off!
2. Weight was down again
3. Worked out this AM
4. Boo boo bear is just so cute & I love him so
5. Bubba is a great big brother
6. Cool weather today
7. Found the 12 mo pjs
8. Hung some pictures today
9. Having my car back
10. Resisted the ice cream I really wanted.

1. Off today!
2. Will have the house to myself
3. Made it to work our yesterday
4. Weight down
5. Beautiful weather
6. Made it to the farmers market on Saturday
7. HoCo is over
8. Food prepped
9. PS almond milk creamer
10. Family walk in park

1. It’s Friday
2. 4 day weekend
3. Homecoming!
4. Great weather
5. Chipotle
6. Beautiful baby boys
7. Jeans day
8. Fall decor
9. Pumpkin everything
10. Feeling better

1. Baby dance party
2. Didn’t stay at work for forever
3. Doing ok with diet and only had 1/2 cupcake for hubs birthday
4. Office mate brought me a coffee (although I did dump it)
5. Homecoming almost over
6. Weight was back down
7. Family time
8. Nice weather
9. The smiliest baby ever
10. Four day weekend coming up