Gratitude

1. Hubs who will take care of things and goes well past what’s “fair” for him to do
2. Beautiful babies
3. A little boy who uses a whistle by putting it in his mouth and then makes a whistling noise 😍
4. Being able to stay late to get sorta caught up at work
5. Hump day tomorrow
6. I can use meetings as my excuse for not doing wacky Wednesday.
7. Staying under my calorie goal
8. Giving myself a workout break this week (so I am not 100% worn out)
9. Healthy option at dinner
10. Pooped!

1. Family day
2. Purchased a few Halloween / fall decorations 🎃
3. Got to nap
4. Deposited bear’s baptism gifts finally
5. Food prepped
6. Recommitted to nutrition: restricting options to make more manageable
7. Spirit week finally here
8. Good puppy 🐶
9. Good hubs
10. Coffee

Focus on nutrition and water consumption. Not feeling well 😔

I am a mess. My emotions are out of wack. I feel sad and terrible and just not enough. I just want to be someone else, not anyone in particular, just someone else. The hubs and I stopped in a new store that sells CBD oils and what have you. I have been opposed to this as it just seems like a fad and like really there are NO negative side effects?!?!? But I am considering taking it to see if it helps me feel better, less anxious and less down. Hoping my hormones are still adjusting and that this is NOT my new normal. I was unprepared though. I didn’t know what to ask for and I don’t want to say oh, I feel like garbage every day and I am sad and anxious and … anyway, gratitude below.

Gratitude:

1. My big bubba is so cute and funny and thoughtful and sweet, I am so lucky to be his momma
2. Fun with friends
3. Bubba and I made cookies together for the first time. Loved it!
4. Got to workout
5. Hubs got to workout
6. Autumn is coming
7. Some Christmas gifts done
8. Planning for a low key Sunday today.
9. Spirit week at school
10. Another day of nice weather and family time.

I am so behind and not doing what I am supposed to be (according to my nutrition coach) and I have no idea what I am being challenged to do at this moment. I having been feeling not so great for the past week-ish. The not great way I was feeling back in the spring. Is is postpartum hormones or is this just me? I really don’t know any more. I feel down and negative about myself–in addition to feeling so fat and physically gross, I also feel incompetent, not likeable, annoying, disposable… I was supposed to be texting my coach what I was most proud of in the AM about the day before. This was challenged on Sunday. I sent my text Monday (worked out even when I didn’t want to), but by Tuesday AM I stopped. I had nothing to say. I haven’t done anything to be proud of. Not that I did “bad” things but there was just nothing to mention or highlight. So today I am trying to get back to my gratitude. I also need to get improve my sleep. Like for real. I think that is really taking its toll on me and def contributes to feeling low.

Gratitude:

1. That I have sick time to use and take care of my babies when I need to.
2. Doggie day care
3. Beautiful baby boys
4. Time to do things at home.
5. The weeks almost over
6. Great weather
7. Fall is approaching
8. Hubs can stay home with bear tomorrow
9. Coffee
10. Computers!

Gratitude:

1. Worked out even though I didn’t want to.
2. GFS
3. Beautiful weather
4. Food prep done
5. Weight not up
6. New sneakers
7. Hubs was off yesterday
8. A new week

Good: Worked out, got out of the house, in bed at a decent time

Improve: Go to sleep earlier, more steps, track & get the macros

Gratitude:

FRIDAY!!!

Oats

Almond milk

Beautiful day predicted

Kids are staying after school

Got a good workout last night

Babies

Family

My car

My town

1. 1. Hubby
2. Making it through the week
3. Feeling better today
4. Fit into pants that had been too small
5. Number in the sale is better
6. My co-teacher
7. My 2019 officers
8. My co-advisors
9. Its almost Friday
10. Puppers

Good: Didn’t freak out when student asked if I was pregnant. Worked out. Didn’t hang out downstairs (eating snacks and staying up to late)

Improve: Water consumption. Stop thinking about being asked if pregnant. Get more shite done.

Gratitude:

1. Could leave B2S night after 6th period
2. Some parents came out
3. Lots of kids still coming for homecoming prep meetings
4. Weight has been good
5. Little boys ❤️
6. Hubs took care of basically everything the last 2 days
7. Dog got to go to daycare
8. Coffee

Good: felt good about fitting into pants that were too small. Left a little earlier today.

Improve: water, impatient with a student, calories & carbs

Managed stress well esp since I wasn’t feeling well and got so little sleep

Water consumption good

Food planned and calories good

So tired, need all the sleep

Improve focus

Improve time management at school

Gratitude:

1. Little bear stayed asleep
2. A new week
3. Food is prepped for the week (I think)
4. Autumn is on its way
5. Someone thinking of us (giving us toys and clothes)
6. Flyers are made
7. Lots of kids have been involved this year
8. My cousin
9. Doing breathing with the big baby young
10. Family

Good: Made it to and through a challenging workout despite being so tired. Eating was good. Prep helped. Did not completely freak out when realized I had the baby seat and had to go home.

Improve: Time management at work–I am getting over run. Sleep. Water.