I can do this, I can do this, I can do this. I am struggling to get this weight off, but I can do it. I need to be patient with the process and myself. Accept set backs and do not allow them to ruin my forward progress. Recommit. I can do this. Last night my sleep was better but I still need to get to bed earlier. I am going to set an alarm to help propel me forward.

Gratitude:

1. My beautiful babies
2. A loving supportive husband
3. My mom
4. How loved my children are by everyone
5. I have a good job
6. It’s a new and fresh school year
7. Autumn is coming
8. New school supplies
9. Good first day
10. Long weekend coming up

Action: Drink water. Get sleep. Breathe.

I am off the rails. I go all or nothing, it’s so bad. I cannot say no to the sweets (I.e., baptism cake, cookies). I need to sleep and I need to stop eating. And go to the gym.

Gratitude:

1. MIL made it home safe
2. Got a new tape dispenser at work
3. Work day went pretty fast
4. Over 12,000 steps
5. Made it to the Cop and a Cone event and didn’t even know it was happening
6. Got first day of work gifts from co-workers
7. Mom is babysitting this week (saving some $$)
8. Beautiful weather
9. Beautiful and generous baptism gifts for boo boo bear
10. Hubs took care of babes for bed tonight

Action: Get back on diet. Water water water. SLEEP!!!

Today’s baby boo boo bears baptism. I hope it is a wonderful day for such a wonderful little baby.

Gratitude:

1. Family visiting to celebrate this little baby
2. Having a job
3. Bubba had fun at yesterday’s birthday party
4. Those who helped me set up for the party
5. Bear’s godparents
6. Got in a workout yesterday
7. Beautiful weather
8. Baby deer in my yard
9. Queer eye
10. Clean house

Action: Drink water. Be mindful and moderate eating today.

Gratitude:

1. In-laws made it here safely
2. Poke bowls
3. Looks like a beautiful day
4. Lots of cleaning done yesterday
5. Baby slept till 8!
6. It’s the weekend
7. Farmers market
8. Dove garland is going to look good
9. Family
10. Healthy babies

Action: Workout! DRINK WATER! Enjoy the day.

Gratitude:

1. Weight remains under 180.
2. Off today!!!
3. Met some parents who want to be involved with class activities and fundraising
4. Students signed up to be involved
5. Rained last night
6. Dad mowed our lawn
7. Hubs back is feeling better
8. Got to watch an hour of tv in near solitude
9. Babies were asleep when I got home from work last night
10. Loving family

Action: Clean the hell out of this house! Hang pictures! Drink water!

Keeping track of which # I am on is obviously not working out that great. I am so tired and only on the 2nd day back. But after this weekend and the baptism, some pressure should be off (I hope). I need to take things one at a time.

Gratitude:

1. I have a job
2. Parents are watching boys again
3. Dad made dinner last night
4. Doves for garland came out great
5. Last day of work for this week
6. New guy who I am sharing my room with seems ok
7. Hubs got up during the night with the littlest of the littles.
8. I have a working car
9. It’s almost fall
10. I am healthy

Action: Make a list of what I need to do over the next month ( dentist, car estimate, est). Be positive at work even when it’s hard. Write notes for the first day.

First day back to work.

Gratitude:

1. My wonderful loving happy healthy babies

1. Boys slept through the night
2. Parents here to watch them
3. Hubs is feeling a little better
4. Weight ok
5. Only 2 days of work this week
6. Doggie day care
7. Worked out last night
8. I am healthy
9. Remembered to do some breathing & gratitude in the AM to start the day

Action: Workout. Clean living room & dining room.

I am really having a hard time being grateful and focused and peaceful right now. I was challenged to take 5 min to be grateful and breath this AM before anything else, particularly going online. I failed as I never even thought of it until a few hours after being awake. Now I really wish I had started the day that way. Maybe I wouldn’t be at least 4 fights in with the hubs and feeling like the asshole as usual. It’s probably my fault but he’s not really helping. He doesn’t feel good, back, so perhaps it’s that. Too often I feel like I am wishing for a different life. And in reality I am the one who has to make it different. Tomorrow I am really going to try to remember to take the 5 f*ing minutes.

Gratitude:

1. Pre-work Party
2. Got shit done!
3. Worked out
4. Enjoyed my two babes
5. Cake and breakfast tray ordered.
6. Gifts for neighbor done
7. The little cakes I bought for the party were good
8. I was under 180 finally! It felt like I just couldn’t get there

Action: Take 5 min. Workout tonight.

Gratitude:

1. We are back home
2. A few days of summer left
3. I don’t think I gained weight while away
4. Family walk
5. Ordered the baptism cake
6. Both boys went to sleep quickly
7. Fast ride home with NO traffic
8. Unpacking is done
9. Got some time on my own
10. Storms didn’t seem too bad

Action: Get to the gym. Take pics. Figure out what to bring to party tomorrow.

It is so hard to stick to a diet and healthy eating around my parents. Their home is filled with booby traps and the eating out!! At least I was healthy most of the day. I still have to add in my calories for dinner, but it could have been worse.

Gratitude:

1. Shopping with mom
2. Some new school clothes that I will be comfortable in
3. Lots of steps
4. Babies took good naps
5. Woody shirt as a surprise if bubba ever uses the potty
6. New winter coat (my Christmas gift from mom)
7. Got some party supplies for boo boo bears baptism party
8. Family Fun night a success
9. New shoes for bubba (please wear the dress shoes!)
10. Bubba got to spend fun times with papa making pizza and going to the park

Action: Work out!!! Drink all the water!!! No sweets!!!