Gratitude:
Action: Workout tomorrow.
Gratitude:
Action: Grocery shop, prep food and sign up for a workout class. Implement my sleep routine when home.
Gratitude:
Action: Stay strong while away! Go to Trader Joe’s tomorrow.
Gratitude:
Action: Track calories staring tomorrow: 1500!!! Get some sleep and take advantage of being away to sit by pool and do class work.
Gratitude:
Action: Increase my confidence. Arrive to gym a little earlier to feel more comfortable. Work hard on my nutrition while away–it will be a challenge.
So, I did my first TRX workout today. It sucked. It really kicked my ass. It also made me really sad. I was in such good shape prior to having these two babies and I was close to tears at points realizing how really fat and out of shape I am. I feel embarrassed for myself. I feel ashamed that I allowed myself to get here and that I will accept comments of “you’re not fat, you just had a baby” or similar. I am fat. I was too big when I was pregnant. Actually, this new place does a scan which tells you your skeletal muscle mass and determines the size of your limbs compared to each other (or something I really don’t know) and I learned I am actually obese. OBESE. Let that sink in. My BMI is 30%. If this doesn’t motivate me, I don’t know what the fuck will. I feel awful about myself. And while I shouldn’t have a pity party, I am having one anyone. Just for a minute. Then I will dig deep to get the fuck out of obesity.
Gratitude:
Action: Pack for trip. Get in another gym workout tomorrow.
Again, it’s way to f*ing late to reflect on the day. These are the days I probably need it the most as the day was jam packed. But getting as much sleep as possible is also a top priority.
Gratitude:
Action: get more sleeeeeeeepppppp!!! Get my toddler to stay in his bed and if he wakes, to just go back to sleep! Not scream like he is being murdered.
I had a lot I wanted to type today, but by now I am too TIRED! So just sticking to the requirements.
Gratitude:
Action: Still need to improve water consumption. Review approved foods list.
I had a lot I wanted to type today, but by now I am too TIRED! So just sticking to the requirements.
Gratitude:
Action: Still need to improve water consumption. Review approved foods list.
So a lot of today was about food. Making new things from the really crappy 6 week challenge recipe book ( I.e. the name of the recipe in the index does not match the actual name of the recipe, the pictures of the dish are not the dish the recipe makes, e.g. the picture of the quinoa chicken salad has no chicken or red onions, but it does have tomatoes, cilantro and avocado, non of which are ingredients in the dish. It’s like they did a google image search and pasted the first thing that came up.). Also, of course, the heating element of the dishwasher does not seem to be working. So there was a lot of running the dishwasher to diagnosis what was wrong (like, was the water getting hot or was nothing clean???), but this was coupled with a great deal of dishwashing by hand. And it’s not really the dishwashing part that I find annoying, it’s really the drying part as the drying rack is only so big and when you are doing meal prep and have kids, it’s like a never ending line of washing and drying and I am glad it’s not the 30s and this is what I had to do everyday. So the day went super fast. I did get in my 10,000 steps so that was great and I made it to the farmers market, another accomplishment. I also have like all the breakfasts that I need for the week and at least a couple of dinners. Even though he is not doing this challenge with me, my husband will eat these meals (although I kinda did not share this morning’s oatmeal blueberry bake but I did promise he could taste it next time I ate it which I think is fair). The hubs got a ton of shite done around the house, cleaned out the garage, mowed the jungle that was our lawn, trimmed some shrubbery, used the weed whacker, all of which I super appreciate and looks amazing. But it had all looked awful up till now and while I love that it is done, sometimes I hate that he is doing it. Does that even make sense? Like I feel like our family time is limited enough, that I hate it getting squandered on that BS. But I also HATE when everything is dirty or in disarray. So basically i just hate everything and am never happy. I really need to work on this. I am hoping all this pays off tomorrow with a fun family day out that ends at the pool. Diet is still ok on day 2, but I am sure I am still eating too much. But the pool is good motivation. I want to feel comfortable at the pool and in a bathing suit so I can fully enjoy being with my family, especially those two amazing little boys.
Gratitude:
Action: Drink more water! Workout!
The (mis)Adventures of the MayBee Mom