This was the first break where I think I actually truly did no work. I had planned to but then I was just enjoying my down time and my family too much. Going back today is hard. I kinda don’t want to. But getting paid is nice and necessary. I am trying to embody and …
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Can he feel empathy?
My new therapist asked me an interesting question today. Does my husband feel empathy? My immediate response is yes! But I keep coming back to this question. I know that lack of empathy or inability to feel empathy is a classic sign of narcissism. And I have ruled that out in my mind a few …
Accountabilility
Life has been challenging in my small corner of the world to say the least. The HIR (is it even right to label him as “in recovery” right now?) recently disclosed relapses that have occurred over the last 8 or 9 months, which he held onto and was not planning to EVER share until I …
Another “Slip”
Chris has another “slip” recently. Except it was not really a slip. It’s relapse. I discovered that he looked at porn – i found it on Tuesday, he did it on Sunday. So many missteps (transgressions? what do i even refer to this as…). He has agreed to disclose information (like this) within 24 hours. …
Tuesday Gratitude
The beautiful fall foliage continues My mom is visiting and helping for the week Able to donate to the animal shelter Shots! Shots! Shots! Booster and flu ✔️ Holiday coffee Beautiful sunny day Being able to stop and breathe yesterday and today My children Sleep Time to be home.
A new high brings me to a new low
Morning Gratitude: Fun activities with the boys yesterday Spoke to MIL Husband working recovery Holiday season New fleece pants, so cozy A new day with new opportunities to be healthy Reading Having others to reach out to 3 wild and silly and loving boys Flowers from the HIR So I weighed in at 200 lbs …
Tuesday Night
Gratitude: Halloween was great! All the boys had so much fun dressing up and trick or treating, but also they LOVED when tricker or treaters came here, shouting trick or treat and announcing that they could have whatever they wanted. I loved it. Great British Bake Off – it just provides me with so much …
What’s wrong with me
I am really having a hard time. I need help, I need to see a doctor to follow up on my depression and medications. My ability to handle everything being thrown at me is very limited. I am taking my medication but I am not as consistent as j should be. We are still waiting …
Purging of my mind
Such inner turmoil. I am inclined to write that I don’t know how I feel, but that is not really the case. I am struggling with my thoughts and feelings towards and about my recovery SA husband. I am having a difficult time seeing his positive attributes and rather find his weaknesses, his areas that …
Overwhelmed
To say things have been overwhelming is an understatement for sure. We closed on the new house on Friday and I wasn’t in love. It was difficult, I had only seen the house once in person and then had zillow pictures to look at and of course, everything looks better and bigger in pictures. Seeing …
The (mis)Adventures of the MayBee Mom 