He is so fucking frustrating. First, yesterday, to tell me after he is at work for over 12 hours, while I am home working FT and my mom helping with the 3 little babies, that he will SACRIFICE his Tuesday night SA meeting so i can go to my SAnon meeting, like give me a …
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WTH
He is so fucking frustrating. First, yesterday, to tell me after he is at work for over 12 hours, while I am home working FT and my mom helping with the 3 little babies, that he will SACRIFICE his Tuesday night SA meeting so i can go to my SAnon meeting, like give me a …
Gratitude
Artwork with Bear Baby Buddha snoozin Finishing cards with Bubba Husband working recovery Friyay! Working from home Monday & Tuesday Sunny beautiful day Holiday time Good dog A moment of silence to myself Intentions: Get up and move! Take the time I need. Enjoy my life and my family. Affirmations: I love my family, I …
Journal
I bought a cute new journal, so I haven’t been writing here lately. But for the most part I am sticking when at least practicing daily gratitude. Gratitude: GBBO Family weekend Cool fall weather Couples Sanon meeting No children slept in my bed last night Beautiful cute loving boys Quiet time (really not due to …
Gratitude
Hubs is working his program Halloween family fun Fresh fruit Halloween baking championship Sweet Buddha baby Funny bear Loving and smart bubba Target Soup and grilled cheese on a rainy day Time for self care Intentions: Family fun time at home, be mindful and healthy, love my family, attend meeting. Affirmations: I love my family, …
Monday
Tough start to the day. Slept in couch while babe slept in baby rocker. Took along time to get to sleep so didn’t want to move him upstairs and risk waking him up. But then i didn’t sleep well. I was cranky and negative with hubs. At least we both texted while he was leaving …
Sunday Funday
Let the hubs sleep in and through most of the night. I realized recently (or maybe just verbalized it) that I have the least patience for him. Like I am much quicker to get annoyed or irritated with him compared to anyone else. He woke up feeling achy today and in my head, I am …
Saturday
Everyone is home today which is nice. Weather seems beautiful. I slept 8 hours! Amazing. Gratitude: Beautiful baby boys Whole weekend off for hubs Halloween driving tours Target Pumpkin oat health cookies Lovely weather My home My family Intentions: Be calm, use breathing to be calm, focused and regroup as needed. Enjoy family time. THINK. …
Full days
I joined some new apps. Pay apps, which I rarely do. A weight loss app and a self-care / goal app. It’s keeping me busy and I hope it’s worth it. Definitely weight wise I already feel better. While I know I didn’t actually lose 5 real lbs this week, I definitely did lose water …
Another day, another realization
Had a session with my therapist. Basically, if the hubs is relapsing (2xs in the past 1-2 mo), he is fucked up and not healthy. He cannot take in feedback. I need to lower my expectations. I need to let go. He needs to get control of his recovery. I have to figure out what …
The (mis)Adventures of the MayBee Mom 