It is so hard to stick to a diet and healthy eating around my parents. Their home is filled with booby traps and the eating out!! At least I was healthy most of the day. I still have to add in my calories for dinner, but it could have been worse.

Gratitude:

1. Shopping with mom
2. Some new school clothes that I will be comfortable in
3. Lots of steps
4. Babies took good naps
5. Woody shirt as a surprise if bubba ever uses the potty
6. New winter coat (my Christmas gift from mom)
7. Got some party supplies for boo boo bears baptism party
8. Family Fun night a success
9. New shoes for bubba (please wear the dress shoes!)
10. Bubba got to spend fun times with papa making pizza and going to the park

Action: Work out!!! Drink all the water!!! No sweets!!!

First the diet and now the reflection each night. I have to keep it together.

Gratitude:

1. Made it to work out everyday since Sunday
2. Visiting fam in NY
3. Gorgeous weather this evening, breezy and no humidity.
4. Coffee
5. Got my steps today
6. Crappy weather yesterday but made for good time at the pool
7. The big baby is doing awesome sleeping in his bed
8. Slept over 8 hours last night and was the first one up this AM (not including my husband)
9. Under my calories today (god, I hope I didn’t forget to track something)
10. Dog at doggy daycare today

Action: Improve protein tomorrow. Get in a workout.

Gratitude:

1. Dinner with friends
2. Good bonding with the hubs in the really loooong car ride to and from dinner
3. SIL babysitting the babies
4. SIL coming over to take us to Costco
5. Weather held out
6. Pool time
7. Hubs got off work early
8. Roof replacement estimate not as expensive as I thought
9. Below Deck Med
10. Summer is not over yet

Action: Meal prep. Plan work out time while away.

I feel like I have fallen off the rails with this f*ing diet already. My parents are saboteurs! You say you are doing a diet plan and paying money for this 6 week challenge and they f*ing bring you enormous gooey brownies. Something you f*ing love. Seriously?!?! I tried to at least stick to my caloric limit if not so focused on my macros. I really need to actually improve my lean protein intake. Tomorrow is another day. But of course, I am going out to eat with friends for dinner. And I don’t want to order plain grilled chicken with steamed broccoli. Like, I am going out to eat. I want to enjoy it and eat food that is yummy that I won’t make at home. I have to text my coach about what to do. I know what my breakfast abs lunch will be, but because I am making lunch tomorrow (stuffed peppers) I don’t know what the calorie count will be for a serving. I am sure it can’t be too much…

Gratitude:

1. Family outing for smoothies and long walk
2. Got over 10000 steps
3. Got in a workout this AM
4. Bubba took a nap in his big boy bed
5. Prepped food for the hubs. He deserves it

1. Almost 8 hours of sleep

7. JM is attending boo boo bears baptism

1. Pretty relaxing day
2. Got my car estimate info submitted
3. Summer is not over yet!

Action: Consult with coach about dinner out and about trip to parents.

Slightly frustrated that I haven’t made more progress in the past 2 weeks. I am so heavy and I have worked so hard in my diet and working out, I feel like weight should be sliding right off. And it’s not! WTF…but I need to stay focused and on track. It will work. It will work. It will work.

Gratitude:

1. My parents.
2. Farmers Market
3. Such a lovely little town I get to live in
4. Live music
5. New clothes
6. Lots of steps
7. The most wonderful babies
8. My cozy bed
9. Hubs mowing the lawn
10. Netflix

Action: Actually eat more protein and not just say it!!!

Slightly frustrated that I haven’t made more progress in the past 2 weeks. I am so heavy and I have worked so hard in my diet and working out, I feel like weight should be sliding right off. And it’s not! WTF…but I need to stay focused and on track. It will work. It will work. It will work.

Gratitude:

1. My parents.
2. Farmers Market
3. Such a lovely little town I get to live in
4. Live music
5. New clothes
6. Lots of steps
7. The most wonderful babies
8. My cozy bed
9. Hubs mowing the lawn
10. Netflix

Action: Actually eat more protein and not just say it!!!

Friday reflection time to go into the weekend 💪🏽 :

Overall how do you feel about nutrition?

Good. Stuck close to the approved food lists and when I went off the list, it was for things like a few carrots or dairy in my coffee. This was mostly when we were away and when options were limited.

What went really well this week?

I did manage being away pretty well and nutrition overall. Made more workouts then I thought I would.

What’s your goal for next week?

Focus on consuming enough protein. This is sometimes a challenge. The carbs and fats are more crave worthy and sometimes just easier.

AND what’s going on this weekend we need to plan around?

Parents are visiting. They are a challenge because they always bring things that I am trying not to eat. And today was no exception, brought 2 huge brownies (I LOVE brownies). I had extra calories at the end of today though, so I did have a taste. And I am okay with that. I was still within my calories and macros were pretty close to where they should be.

Gratitude:

1. Weekend is here
2. Family workout class
3. I am so in love with baby bear
4. Dishwasher repair guy was here and not charging us for the needed part
5. Family is visiting
6. Fun time at the pool with babies and grandma
7. Great British Bake Off
8. Target
9. Doggie is back home
10. Hot, but good weather

Action:

1. Improve my steps
2. Get enough protein

Gratitude:

1. Told my nutrition coach I was struggling with how I feel
2. Babies 🥰
3. Wrap for dinner
4. I have lost weight (but I am also dissatisfied that it wasn’t more!)
5. Music festival at the library
6. Good nap for bubba
7. Hubs took bubba for a walk so I could get some time cleaning
8. Workout
9. Storm held out until after we were home from activities
10. Family is coming to visit tomorrow.

The struggle is real! I have been too tired to do anything but the bare minimum of gratitude and action items. Just the thought of writing more was exhausting. So, I feel like maybe I have been struggling with some postpartum issues (depression?) and I started to feel like things were better and I was better, but the past few days have been rough. I can’t really pin point why, but I just am not feeling great. My trainer / nutrition coach is so high energy every morning at the gym asking how I am. Okay and tired are my rote responses. I am just feeling low. Low energy, low mood, just low. I don’t feel like my weight or body is changing even though I have been super committed esp in terms of diet. I feel frustrated. And I am still not comfortable at the gym. I feel awkward and out of place and unsure. But that’s also how I am feeling in life. I am not really sure what to do, how to move forward in a better way to get to a better place.

Gratitude:

1. Bubba is finally asleep–it was rough tonight.
2. Family fun day
3. Worked out
4. Trader Joe’s
5. Car picnic
6. Storms are over

Action: Continue to work on bedtime routine, for me and bubba.

I was really a f*ing b*h today. I really don’t know what’s wrong with me.

Gratitude:

1. Worked out
2. Family walk
3. Hubs put together new bed for bubba
4. Took 6 mo pictures of baby bear
5. Baby bear’s leg seems to feel better
6. Baby crib was moved out of my room
7. Easy tracking today
8. Got my steps
9. I have a house
10. I am sticking with getting back in shape

Action: Workout. Work on classwork (5 chapters). Better attitude.